12.28.03
10:00 p.m.
type whatcha feel


all of my family functions are now through. tomorrow i am taking a few to the airport.

yesterday was rough. three familes visits. i told my dad that my tune was the song that goes, "broken home...i'm all alone ooohooohoooh."

he told his family, "emily is so dramatic she says her song is some country lick that goes... and sang the same lyrics with a country twang. what a ham.

so i guess the boy and i won't be moving in together anytime soon. he pretty much says he wants to live alone for another year. that makes me feel like a big rejectette. i'm trying to be all tough, but it truly hurts to hear him say 'i'm sorry' over and over.

i feel his mother has some influence telling him it isn't a good idea etc.

i was the one that pushed for him to talk to his mom about the whole situation. a kind of, 'mom we're going to do this and it really will be ok' instead the boy says, 'emily has this great plan...etc'

say what?

so it's another year in this place, and that's cool, until i go crazy.

yep, i AM dramatic.

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