{here we are} |
things are stressy and messy. i'm being displaced from my school because of low class numbers. i'm the one with the least amount of seniority. i've been going on interviews around the district trying to secure another first grade position. along with all of that i get an 'add slip' in my teacher mailbox. this add slip comes with a file on this new student coming tomorrow which said everything but 'devil incarnate' and 'breathes fire.' so there is that. the boy had a show tonight and i didn't make it. i feel so lousy about it. what a creep girlfriend i am. guilt is the worst. last night i woke up clutching all of the blankets. (this happens often) i turned over to see him asleep with the body pillow sadly covering him. if the role was reversed i would so totally poke at him until he released his clutch on the covers. he just makes do shivering underneath a body pillow. when in a relationship with someone like that it is so easy to just take and take and take. covers, understanding, love, kindness and forget to give back. i wish i wasn't always such a cover stealer. i need a good poke. (don't be sick) i should really be starting my masters now. i had a goal to start this summer and all of this shit gets dumped on my plate. at least I can |